-Unique-

A million faces pass by
I hide beneath my eyes
I stare blankly ahead
Walking with the dead

I'm not alone here
I'm with so many tears
Hidden under the makeup
The hides the true cuts

We're so good at blending in
So very good at blending sin
With the excuses of humanity
Instead of claiming what we see
When it rains
When the Holy Spirit rains
On our hearts
In our eyes
Melting makeup
Making our cuts
Burn and spark and fade

A thousand faces all around
I can hear a thousand sounds
I try to stay unseen
But I can feel His eyes burn me

I'm not alone here
I try not to - but I hear
Masked by preachers and words
Truth that changes all I've heard

I was so good at blending in
So very good at blending sin
With the excuses of humanity
Instead of claiming what I see
When it rains
When the Holy Spirit rains
On my heart
In my eyes
Melting makeup
Making my cuts
Burn and spark and fade

-catching-

Sleepy dreams they make their way to sleepy minds

Slowly taking them away, far away, far away

Distant lands are here to stay

Distant hopes will never fade

When sleep reigns in our mind

When we wake we follow dreams to places we can’t find

We stare out the window that keeps us here, keeps us here

Kept at the edge of something near

Kept at the edge of something dear

So near we’ll never find

Mists surround our homes

Sun shines through the trees

Kisses from princes

Cries of delight

Summer evenings with bugs that shimmer with bolts of lightning

These are the memories of our dreams

This is the innocence I seek

This is the tranquility so deep

This is the only way to sleep

But I just toss and turn

Toss and turn, toss and turn

I cant reach these dreamlands

I only toss and turn

I only shake and cry

I only wait to die

(how does an insomniac have nightmares this real?)

-Heaven Will Never Come Too Soon-

As I wash up onto the beach

Covered in salty dust and dreams

Of oceans, laughter surrounding me

As I fall deeper still

Until the day that I am clean

Until the water washes me

Until I know that I am free

I’ll keep on running on

I know that I will ask too much

I know I’ll try to change the trust

You’ve placed upon Your deepest cuts

Before the day is through

But when the laughter melts to gray

And all the water falls away

I’ll still be crushed down as I lay

Upon a beach of dreams

The ocean called I followed through

To find the treasure built on You

I never would have thought You knew

Just how lost I have been

But here You are as I lay lost

Eager for me to cite the cost

My life has charged until I washed

Upon this land of life

You’ve taken all, You’ve taken me

As a child, so graciously

And asked me if I wished to see

The hope You poured onto the earth

As You lay dying You saw Light

Ripping through the glowing night

That threatened still to steal Your might

As men spat in Your wounds

But suddenly You conquered death

And prayed for those who stole Your rest

And with Your very last breath

You prayed that I would live

Oh Father how I’ve fallen here

There is so much for me to hear

There is no rest in sight I fear

The worlds’ screams in my face

Oh Father come and rescue me

Capture my broken arms and flee

Into the clouds with my heart free

As we go home tonight

I wish I was a queen on high

Resting in Your awesome skies

Laughing as again we fly

Far away from here

-Juxtaposition-

love love

its always about love

and dreams dreams

taking us where we seem

to be safe inside

lies

lies

its always about lies

and then it ends

and we are left

with all that we gave

nothing more than circumstances

could rip us away

it’s not your fault

you couldn’t stop the change

right

it’s as easy as that

it’s as easy as breathing

supposedly it’s supposed to be

but I’ve never found it so

“love is like oxygen”

but I’m submerged

with no suit to save me

no tank to pump oxygen into my mouth

through my blood

to my heart

all of us are trapped inside this

all of us are playing the game inside this

all of us are lost inside this

underwater hurricane

dark

its so dark

i dive deeper

ever deeper

ever deeper

until I reach the wreck

and breathe inside myself